sick shit.

life.
fark la... why am i so worry about my future recently? damn. if only i can stay 18 and be carefree.
tough to be a adult. respect to my mum,dad,uncle,auntie,grandma and many others for going thru this phase... all i want in life is freedom. but the real world doesn't allow. $ is making this world go round n round. $=career tt why career is my major worry now.i don't want to be just another person walking down the streets.i want big bucks and a good life. man. i need to have that happy-go-lucky attitudes back soon if not i will go crazy.....

her.
everytime i see her i got so much to say but it just couldn't come out of my mouth(ball-less).heartache and disappointment when i see her.i want to move on but like the songs goes "i think i am moving but i go no where." only have myself to blame why did i let such a chance to slip away that few years back. some friends did ask me to try letting her noe everything,but i fear tt would spoil our friendships somehow. and how do i even woo anybody when i doesnt have some of the most basic and impt things like no $ no career and having a future so uncertain.got to work on that few stuff 1st seriously.



btw. i joined the scsm. at least i got something to do already for this few mths. i just love running seriously. such a great to stay fit and a bit of de-stressing effect.